Did You Ever Love Somebody?
Short Story Song Fic
By: Jessica M. Moonflower
E-mail: salud731@earthlink.net
Rated: PG

Summary: In Serena's POV, she
reflects about how much she loves
Darien after a bad confrontation
with him at the arcade.

Timeline: First Season

Disclaimer: I do not own SM. A
shocker, huh? *Crickets chirping
in the audience* Okay then...

ANs: Hello minna! I'm back with another
short fic. And it's a song fic! It's my 
first time writing one so please be kind. 
I also do not own the song sung by Jessica 
Simpson. Now that I cleared everything
up, let's get on with the story! ^.^

"Love from one side hurts, but love from
two sides heals."
*~Anonymous*~


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Did you ever love somebody?
So much that the earth moved?
Did you ever love somebody?
Even though it hurt to?

*~

Serena's POV

	I can't believe this is happening
to me. Out of all the other guys out 
there in the world, it had to be him. 
HIM of all people! I can't possibly 
love him. We don't even get along with 
each other. We always argue, tease, and
despise each other! We can't even
last in the same room without fighting. 
He hates me and I hate him, right? 
How could two people who despise each 
other so much fall in love? It just 
can't happen. But I do love him. So 
much that I can't fight it no matter 
how hard I try.

*~

Did you ever love somebody?
Nothing else your heart could do?
Did you ever love somebody?
Who never knew?

*~
	
	Love is such a strong feeling to fight. 
You can try to ignore, hide, or even run
from your feelings, but it'll always come 
after you. And when it does, it'll hit you
with so much force that it becomes 
unbearable to live without it, or the 
person you love more than life itself. I
guess I always loved him ever since I
first met him, but never realized it really.
Oh! It's just so horrible to love him when
he doesn't even love me back. Could never
love you back because he sees you as 
some bothersome kid who would never know
the first thing about love. Maybe, would even 
think that what I feel for him is just a silly 
school girl crush. But it's not a crush! I know 
this is true love. I am more certain about this
than about anything else in my entire life. But
he'll never want anything to do with me. He
made it very clear earlier this afternoon...

*Flashback*
	I was just coming from detention and 
stopped by my usual hangout, the Crown Arcade. 
I always stopped by to see Andrew. He really is
like a big brother to me. He's so kind and caring.
If anything is wrong at all, he's always willing 
to listen to my problems. That's what I love 
about him. How he is so willing to stop what he 
is doing just to listen to anyone's troubles or 
if they just want to talk to him.

	As I entered the arcade, I noticed 
Andrew sitting in a booth with Darien, probably 
on his break, talking to Darien. Darien Chiba.
The guy I have gradually fallen in love with. 
I have come to love everything about him.
From his midnight blue eyes to his ebony,
black hair that just falls carelessly in 
front of his eyes. I always wanted to 
brush away those bangs of his away from 
his eyes so it wasn't hiding behind them,
but showing those beautiful, endless,
depth of blue out in the open. Showing 
any emotion he was feeling by looking into
those blue orbs.

	I walked up to the booth that Andrew
and Darien were sitting at. Darien's back
was facing me so he couldn't see me, but
Andrew was sitting across from him,
facing the door and me. As I approached
them, Andrew looked up and smiled at me.

	"Hey, Serena!" Andrew greeted me.

	"Hi, Andrew!" I greeted back. "Hello,
Darien."

	Darien slowly turned around to face
me. God, he's so gorgeous! Especially
his eyes. Eyes that can see into the
soul. 

	Ever since I realized that I love
Darien, I decided to be a lot nicer to
him. Try to end this pointless feud 
and become friends. Maybe from friends
to something more than friends. Maybe 
developing into love.

	I was disrupted from my thoughts
by his voice. 

	"Hey, Meatball Head! Fail any tests
lately?"

	Ouch. That was mean. Not exactly
what I expected as a friendly greeting
from him, but I'll keep trying to be
nice to him.

	"Not really, Darien. In fact, I got 
a 90% on my last English test."

	"What did you do? Cheat off a smart
kid?" Darien haughtily stated.

	"I never cheat! Just because I'm not
the smartest person in the world, doesn't
mean I would sink so low as to cheat!"

	Why is he so mean today?! I'm actually
trying to be nice to him and all he can do 
is throw callous barbs at me?!

	I was already close to tears, but I held
them back. I will not cry in front of him.
No matter what. I will not give him the
satisfaction to know that he was able to
inflict emotional pain on me. But what he 
said next, hurt me more than a thousand
piercing knives could ever do to my heart.

	"Anything is possible, Meatball Head. 
You're way too stupid to actually get a
high mark like a 90% with the grades you
normally get. I don't believe it one bit.
You're nothing but a klutzy failure."

	That was the last straw. I don't
have to take anymore of this abuse. But
why? How could he be so heartless? It's
almost as if he took a gun and shot me
dead on the spot. Looking over my 
bleeding form with cold, unfeeling, 
satisfied eyes. He might as well have
done so. Now I know he truly hates me.
All hopes of befriending him were lost in
the wind. How could someone like Darien,
who so bluntly said that I'm a stupid 
failure, fall in love with me? He made it
perfectly clear that he doesn't want 
anything to do with me. 

	I slowly raised my head to face him, 
looking at him straight in the eye.
Trying to control my trembling 
voice and tears, I spoke.

	"Believe what you want, Darien. 
But I know how I got that grade
and it wasn't through cheating! 
I EARNED IT! I actually
studied and worked hard to get
it. ME! I was tired of being the
stupid girl in school who always
got low marks. At least the only
people who REALLY know how I 
got that 90% are my family 
and friends. They are the ones
who believe in me. You're nothing
but a cold hearted, arrogant,
insensitive jerk who could never
be nice to me just ONCE! God,
I can't believe I came in here
trying to end our petty fights.
I actually wanted to your friend!
ME! This stupid, klutzy Meatball
Head. But you taught me a very
valuable lesson, Darien. You 
want to know what it is? You
taught me how I shouldn't 
bother trying to befriend a
creep like you. Your heart is
nothing but ice."

	I turned and ran out of the
arcade as fast as I could before
I heard his reply. I didn't want to
hear what he has to say. Whatever
he has to say, isn't worth my time
hearing anyway. Each word I 
spoke back in the arcade, rose 
with so much anger and hurt
that I felt deep within my 
heart towards him.

	I was crying now. Blinded 
by my tears as I kept running,
not knowing where my legs
would take me. Suddenly,
I noticed a bridge up
ahead that overlooked the
river. Exhausted from
running so fast, I slowly
walked over to the bridge,
leaned on the ledge of the
bridge, and cried my eyes 
out. The river was the only
witness to my pain that I 
was suffering right now.


*End of Flashback*


	My tears have already
subsided and I was now
sitting on the floor of
the bridge, with my back 
leaning on the railing.
I probably looked like
a big mess with my hair
all mussed up, tear 
stains on my face, and
puffy eyes. I just sat
there. Frozen in my 
spot, not wanting to
move at all. The sun was 
already setting behind
me. I normally love looking
at sunsets, but looking at 
the sun's golden beams
couldn't cure my bleeding
heart. I wanted so much to
hate Darien for what he did
to me, but it just wasn't
possible. Despite the fact
that my heart hurt more
than the fires of Hell
ever could, I still love
Darien. Now and forever,
even though he hates me, 
or could never return my 
love.

	As I continued to stare
off into space while I 
pondered more on my 
feelings for Darien, I
heard the sound of 
approaching footsteps. I
didn't bother turning 
around to see who it was, but
just ignored whoever it was.

	"Serena..." a familiar 
voice said.

	Darien. Why is he here? Why
can't he just leave me alone?!
Doesn't he know I want to be
alone?! He should just leave
me be in my quiet solitude! 

	"Serena, please answer me."

	I slowly turned around to
face him. The look on his face
surprised me. I expected to see
him gloating. Wanting to get
the satisfaction of really 
breaking me with more of his
hurtful words. I saw none of that
when I fully faced him. I saw
a look of concern, regret, and...
worry? Why should he care about 
me? He's the one who said all 
those nasty things to me. He
hates me. He shouldn't be 
caring about me.

	Darien walked closer 
and sat down beside me. I
was moving to get up and 
leave, but Darien grabbed 
my wrist to stop me from
going anywhere.

	"Let me go!" I spat out
harshly.

	"No. Not until you hear
what I have to say."

	"There's nothing to say.
You already said what you 
had to say back at the 
arcade, and I don't want to
stick around to hear more
of your cruel comments and
mockings."

	I tried to get up and
leave again, but he put a
firm hand on my shoulder 
while still holding the
grip on my wrist, making 
it impossible for me to 
leave.

	"That's not why I came
here," he replied in a 
serious tone.

	I stopped my struggling.

	"Then, why did you?"

	"I wanted to say I'm sorry
for the way I acted towards you
back at the arcade."

	"Fine. Apology accepted, now
let go of me!"

	"No. I know you don't accept
my apology. You have every right
not to. After the way I treated
you, who would? Besides, Andrew's
already mad at me for being so 
cold to you.I don't even know
myself why I said those things to 
you in the first place."

	"Why? Why did you?" I whispered
as tears started forming in my
eyes again.

*~

Did you ever lay your hand down?
On the shoulder of a good friend?
And then had to look away somehow?
Had to hide the way you felt for them?

*~

	"The reason I used to tease
you so much, even said hurtful 
things to you, was because 
every time I saw you, I didn't
know how to act around you. Many
times I wanted to say something 
nice to you, but I end up 
blurting out insults instead.
Before I could even stop myself
from doing so. Anyway, I'm not 
really good at expressing my 
emotions to people."

	"Why can't you?"

	"When I was about five, my
parents died in a car crash. I
was the only one to get out 
alive. I also got amnesia from
the crash. I don't remember much
about what my parents were like,
or any of my memories I had with 
them. After the accident, I was 
sent to an orphanage. I was 
mostly a loner with no friends
at all. Nobody at the orphanage
wanted to be my friend. I tried 
to make friends with them, but
they just acted cruel and cold
hearted towards me. For the rest
of my life, I built walls around
my heart. Shutting out any love
or affection. I was just too 
afraid of getting hurt again. I
never wanted to feel anymore 
pain."

	"Oh, Darien! I'm so, so sorry.
I wish I was with you to help
ease the pain. Those kids had no
right to be cruel to you. If
I were one of those kids at
the orphanage, I would have
made friends with you."

	Darien smiled at me.

	"Thanks, Serena. I know
you would."

	"Darien, even after all the
rotten things you have said to me in
the past, I never hated you."

	"You didn't?" Darien asked
with wide eyes.

	"Of course not." I smiled
warmly. "No matter how much
you annoyed me, I could never
feel any hatred towards you. 
Maybe annoyance, but never 
hate."

	Darien smiled back at me.
His eyes shined brightly with
happiness. 

	This is the Darien I have
always wanted to see. Smiling
and always content. I never 
want to see him depressed or
distant from people. Every time
I saw him, he always looked like 
that. But as I look at him now, 
he looks so much different from
the Darien I normally know. This
Darien is so much more sensitive
and vulnerable. He is just as 
hurt by rejection and cruelty
just like anybody else. He also
has a kind heart after you get
to know him more. How much I 
want him to be mine and me be 
his. To just hold him in my arms 
and never let go. I wish I had 
the courage to tell him how I 
feel about him. 

	"Darien, have you ever fallen
for someone?" I tried to sound
as nonchalant as possible.

	"You mean in love?" he 
carefully asked.

	"Yes."

	"Um...I have someone in mind..."
*~

Have you ever prayed the day would 
come? 
You'd hear him say they feel it too?
Did you ever love someone?
Who never knew?

*~
	"How long have you been in love
with her?"

	"Ever since I first laid eyes on 
her."

	"Are you still in love with her?"
I asked anxiously. 

	I don't know what I would do if he 
still loves this girl. Whoever she may
be. Oh! If he does, I don't stand a 
chance in winning Darien's love.

	"Yes, I am."
*~

Oh, oh, oh
And if you did,
Well, you know I'd understand
I could I would
More than anybody can

*~
	My heart sank. It hurt to know 
that Darien is in love with someone 
else. Someone who isn't me. I know I 
could love Darien better. If he just 
gave me the chance, I'd prove to him 
that I'm worthy of his love. But if he 
loves someone else, I have to respect 
that. No matter how much it hurts to 
know that his heart is saved for 
someone else. Oh, Darien. I love you 
so much.

	"Does she know that you love her?" 
I asked, trying to keep my voice from 
cracking and at the same time, holding
in the tears that threatened to spill
down my face.

	"Uh...actually no. She doesn't."

	"Why not? If you love this girl so
much, why didn't you tell her how you
feel?"

	"Because...I'm afraid...that the
girl I have fallen for won't feel the
same way."

	"How would you know if you don't 
tell her? If she doesn't accept your
love, then maybe she's just not the
girl for you. At least if you tell her
how you feel, you won't spend the rest
of your life wondering what would have 
happened if you had told her."

	I just realized something...I really
need to follow my own advice. Here I am
encouraging Darien to tell the girl of 
his dreams how he feels and I can't 
even bring myself to tell him how I 
feel about him.

*~

Did you ever love somebody?
So much that the earth moved?
Did you ever love somebody?
Even though it hurt to?

*~

	"I guess I could tell her. I don't
want to spend the rest of my life in 
regret for not telling her how I feel,"
Darien replied.

	"Good," I whispered dejectedly.

	"What about you, Serena?"

	"What about me?" I asked, puzzled
by his question.

	"Are you in love with anybody?"

	"Why are you asking?"

	"I should be asking you the same 
thing. Care to explain?"

	I could feel that I was blushing
a light shade of pink, which I prayed
he hasn't noticed. He has a right to
wonder why these sudden questions about 
love, but what should I say?

	"Um...well...I always see you with
no girlfriend at all, or dating a girl
in general."

	Good cover up.

	"And you find that odd? Not 
everybody has a special someone in 
their lives," Darien replied, slightly
amused.

	"No, that's not what I mean...
what I meant to say is that...you
could have any girl you want and
you're not with anybody. I see how
girls look at you. I mean...you're
good looking."

	I could feel the heat rise in
my cheeks once again. Did I just 
say that I find him cute?! (ANs:
Oh yeah! ^.^ Sorry! Had to comment 
on that! ^.^ On with the story! ^^;;) 
Now I'm embarrassed. I hope I could 
keep the blush from staining my 
cheeks to a noticeable shade of pink.

	"Did I just hear right? Serena
Tsukino actually finds me cute?"
Darien asked, interested and with a
mischievous glint in his eyes.

	Great! Now he's going to have
an oversized ego. As if it isn't
big as it is. I should have kept 
my mouth shut. (ANs: Yup! ^.^)

	"Uh...uh...can we just drop 
it, Darien? Please?" I begged 
meekly.

	"Nope. I'm not going to let
this subject slide. It's just too
fun to torture you. I want to 
hear exactly what you said." Darien
had a HUGE goofy grin on his face.

	Apparently, he's enjoying 
watching me suffer.

	::sigh:: "Okay, fine! I will! I
find you c..." I mumbled inaudibly.

	"What? I didn't quite hear you. 
Speak louder." Darien leaned in to
hear better.

	"Darien, you know you're gorgeous!
So stop pestering me!" I growled loudly.

	"Now I'm gorgeous?" Darien teased.

	"DARIEN!!!!!"

	"Okay, okay. Sheesh. I was just 
kidding, Serena. Don't blow a gasket."

	"Next time, don't push my buttons,
Chiba. I'm quite ugly when I'm mad."

	"I don't think I want to see that 
side of Serena Tsukino.

	"Good." Serena relaxed.

	"But you still haven't answered
my first question," Darien said 
seriously.

	"What would that be?"

	"Are you in love with anybody?"
	I knew he would never forget 
about that question. Might as well
answer it.

	"Yes. Yes, I am," I softly 
replied.

	A flood of emotions seemed to 
run by his face. Some I couldn't
distinguish. One of the emotions
I managed to read was--disappointment?
I wonder why he would be disappointed
when I said I was in love with a
guy? But that couldn't be it. I
probably misread his feelings. I know
his disappointment has nothing to do 
with me.

	"Does he know?" Darien calmly 
asked.

	"No."

	"Why not?"

	"I never told him because...he's
in love with someone else." Tears 
started welling up in my eyes.

	"Oh, Serena!" Darien wrapped me 
in a warm embrace.

	It felt so right to be in his 
arms. Just like this. If only he knew
that he is the guy I love.

*~

Did you ever love somebody?
Nothing else your heart could do?

*~


	"It's okay. I'll get over it. I
never had a chance with him really. 
Why would he love me? I'm not pretty
enough anyway."

	"Don't say that. Serena, you
are the most beautiful girl I have 
ever seen in my entire life. A guy
must be crazy to think otherwise."

	I looked up at Darien. Shock
was clearly evident on my face. He 
thinks I'm beautiful?

	"You think I'm beautiful?" I
voiced out my thoughts.

	"Yes," he whispered gently in
my ear. "You're also sweet, caring,
and loving. So many things that a 
guy could want in a girl."

	What could this mean? Could 
this confession mean that he feels
the same way about me like I feel
for him? Oh, please! If there is 
a God up there, please let it be
true.

	"Serena, I have a confession
to make."

*~

Did you ever love somebody?
Like I love you?

*~


	"What is it?"

	"The girl that I told you
that I'm in love with...it's you."

	"Me?" I cried out in shock
and hope at the same time.

	Darien chuckled.

	"Of course you, silly. I 
loved you ever since I first bumped
into you that fateful day. You know
what? I still love you."

	"Darien...I-I don't know what 
to say," I stuttered.

	"You told me to tell the girl 
of my dreams how I felt. Well, there
you have it. You're the girl I have 
fallen in love with."

	I was so elated! I couldn't
believe what I just heard! Darien
loves me! I'm his dream girl. All 
this time!

*~

Like I love you?

*~

	"Darien, I have a confession
to make myself. The guy that I'm
in love with...is you."

	"I'm the guy?!" It was Darien's
turn to be in a state of shock.

	"Yes." I smiled.

	"That means--you thought I loved
someone else?"

	"Yes. When you said you were in 
love with a special girl, I didn't think 
it could have been me."

	Darien kissed the top of my 
forehead and whispered, "I could never
love anybody else the way I love you."

	"Neither could I," I whispered
back.

	Slowly, we closed in to kiss
each other. The kiss was soft and 
sweet and then became more passionate.
His tongue urged my mouth to open and
I complied. We explored each others
mouths as I ran my hands through his
soft, ebony hair and he caressed my 
cheek. We broke the kiss to regain
our breaths after depriving our lungs 
of oxygen for such a long period of 
time. I rested my head on his shoulder 
while he left a trail of kisses on my 
neck.

	"I love you, Darien."

	"I love you, Serena."

	We started kissing each other
again under the star lit sky. Content
and deeply in love.

*~

Like I love you?

*~

The End

~~~*************~~~

Hey kiddies! What do ya think? Hopefully,
it was to everyone's liking? I actually
wrote this thing back in September. I know
I'm bad, but I never had a chance to finish
typing this thing up. It's not because I'm 
lazy. It's because I'm so busy studying exams 
and such for school. At least I finally got
it out! Anybody proud? ^.~ Since this is now
finished, I can get to more important things...
typing up some chapters to The Beauty Within Her
and Love's Got A Hold On My Heart. Thought I
forgot about those stories, huh? It's kind of
hard to forget when you have people constantly 
e-mailing you, asking when the next chapter is
coming, or people bopping you on the head with
hammers, spatulas, wands, laser guns, and 
threatening to hunt me down until I get a 
chapter out! ^^;;;; If you people don't 
understand what I'm talking about, don't 
ask. It's a long story. The things you have 
to face as a fanfic author. But I love all my
*threatening team*. You all know who you
are! I don't think names are necessary.
E-mail people! It's an author's best friend
and it brightens up our days! ^.^